Thursday, October 4, 2012

Time to Think

You could say that this new chapter in my life is in the middle of "My Novel." I chose to retire from full-time education and teaching after more than 25 years. I'm excited about this new chapter, but my typical day is now very different for me, differences that I did not anticipate.  When I returned to college to complete my education, I had been a stay-at-home Mom raising our four children. I juggled my time between being an involved Mom, a serious student, and then while my children were still at home, a full-time elementary school teacher. I frequently experienced the guilt that grabs Moms everywhere when they "can't do it all." Our family adjusted and made sacrifices, but we all survived the changes.  

Writing this new chapter, I did not anticipate that I would have lots of "time to think."  Quiet think time was a luxury in the midst of the demands required of a mom of four children, and later a teacher of 25 or more students every school year. In addition to think time, I can actually create my own schedule.  Other than a few obligations, I can put off today what I can do tomorrow. I don't have to answer to anyone but my God and my husband.  I can play with my grandchildren; travel with my husband; walk my dogs; read a good book; try a new recipe; harvest our garden; and even make applesauce from our homegrown apples. Freedom, a gift to treasure!

However, at times I miss and long for those structured and very  busy days with my home family, and school family.

Don't get me wrong, I am enjoying the freedom of arranging my day. However, I'm ready to add some structure and commitments back into my schedule: more family & friend time, weekly bible study, volunteering, exercising more and eating less...and I'm writing again!  The busy hot summer is over; fall is finally here. A cold wind is blowing, and the pumpkins are ready to be picked.  Thanksgiving will have a whole new meaning this year....